Storm is brewing

Not often do I stop to think about you and what you’re doing. I'd rather look at the clouds moving.

Have you ever witnessed the weather as it develops?

It's unlike anything my ex could do because it's made by God, so it's a million times better.

Our Lord is a trendsetter.

God is the artist; are you even watching?

They’re always following closely behind but it's the blind, leading the blind.

I choke sobs

I don’t tell them to be silent

or treat them kindly

I tell them to shut the fuck up

… and for some reason, they don’t stop.

A storm engulfed me on campus this morning

There was no warning

Things go from sunny to thundering, but it's never funny to me.

I see God in the wind.

Sometimes I remember how abruptly it all ended.

In the safety of the night, I think of my late friend...

and how each day is less time before I see him again.

The end of some springs are sure never to be fruitful again.

I mean…. it's entirely my concern.

I am the one who has to sort through thoughts

and discern where was the wrong turn,

since he’s in the urn.

My heart feels like it burns, but mostly, my pain is private.

Quite contrary to popular belief --

It's not as easy to practice what you preach...

It entirely depends on how much you practice.

There are no antics that could bring me panic

Where there’s smoke, there is fire.

Am I a good liar? Depends on who you ask.

If they found out I smoke tree, I'm fired.

Do you think I can ride out the wave?

They let me carry on mindlessly,

until I make a new mistake.

My ignorance helps me feel safe.

I could cry for a million reasons

But I won’t tell you one,

some things we should take to the grave,

even if the stories are engraved

in our head like a song.

June 2023